B.E.A.U.T.Y

You aint beautiful
I aint pretty
skin deep beauty
pretty as is pretty does
shame on me
shame on my shallow
why do I care ?
and why the hell I mind ?
Who doesnt really care ?
I shook my head
and pulled down my hand
I'm ashamed
and I'm afraid
I might be the foolish one
So come and tease me away
So come and tear me apart
Cuz I'm indeed so easy to be 'flushing' down
Spontaneous at once

Owh tell me I aint pretty
I aint pretty much like you
Pretty much like what you do
What you do is just not me but you
But you the one make me a fool
Make me a fool that lose my pride
Lose my pride and i cant get tru
I cant get tru but i ought to do
I ought to do the Me myself I do
I do hate you Im sorry I really do
I really do hate myself for bother you such a fool
A fool I am , I sigh , I shame .

倔强

心里的话

对谁说？

我不知道

就这里吧 ！

至少每人埋怨

至少免了一切的不需要

至少说给自己听

我也不期望有很多人分享

毕竟也是属于自己的声音

至少过路人看了

产生共鸣

这就足够了

整整一年了

没诉说心声

从前总是不忘提笔

记载下所有经历的点滴

因为我最惧怕的是

痛失被遗忘的回忆

在不愉快伤心的时候

写下当下心境

叙述难受的心情

紧绷着的心

也会从而舒服一些

这一年来

成长许多

犹如经历了整世纪

跌倒，振作，再爬起来

经历了无数伤悲

泪水与失望交替

我迷失了自己

渐渐寻找回自我

这看似短暂但却遥远的路程

我随波荡漾的漂浮着

任海浪冲翼着狼狈的自己

关上耳朵，闭上眼睛

我随风飘逸，无人左右

好不容易找到了片浮板

转眼看，从前错失的倒影

我咬紧牙关，迎波直流

迈向那披护着我的避风港

我看见了曙光，看见了希望

岁月不饶人

随着时间的流逝

我也渐渐感受到

美好时光回不去的感叹

况且眼前未来路途遥远

忐忑的心境，我一步步坎坷横行

蒙蔽上的双眼

我看不清未来

听不见所有喧哗，阻扰

我沉溺于眼前的幸福

我再也回不去

未来不管怎样

只要和你同行

握着我的手

再大的风雨

我也不畏惧

至少我曾经那么的深爱过

至少我曾经体验过真爱

至少我曾经被那么疼惜过

幸福，我珍惜。

我从不后悔

不管聚光下的异视眼光

闪光灯打得太亮了

因为在我的目光里

只有你

Swan

Winter has come for me
can't carry on.
The chains to my life are strong
but soon they'll be gone.
I'll spread my wings one more time.

Is it a dream?
All the ones I have loved calling out my name.
The sun warms my face.
All the days of my life
I see them passing me by.

In my heart
I know I can let go.
In the end I will find some peace inside.
New wings are growing tonight.

Is it a dream?
All the ones I have loved calling out my name.
The sun warms my face.
All the days of my life
I see them passing me by.

As I am soaring
I'm one with the wind.
I am longing to see you again
it's been so long.
We will be together again.

Is it a dream?
All the ones I have loved calling out my name.
The sun warms my face.
All the days of my life
I see them passing me by.

夜

寂寞孤寂
独自仰望着窗口
天色依旧暗涩得凄美
空虚吞噬着我冷漠的心
不痛， 不哭，我不伤心
觉得自己挺可悲的
那么孤单，那么惆怅，那么忧郁
不禁想起
何时自己是快乐的？
家庭的温暖我珍惜
我感激这始终如一的温馨
但是骨子里的叛逆
我输不起
我渴望自由自在，随心所欲的任性



在你最脆弱的时刻
你渴望的又是什么?
我渴望一个真心的拥抱
我需要万千溺爱的关怀
我需要一个知心让我倾诉
我需要毫无条件的付出
我需要一个肩膀让我依靠
我需要一个掌心抚摸我的伤悲
我需要一把声音激励我说：
“好乖，好坚强。”
我需要你无时无刻的关爱

我好凄凉
好罪恶
好迷茫
好空虚
好狼狈
我自个儿独自伤悲
我到底渴望什么？
我无言以对
我落寞是因为我惭愧
我忧愁是因为我疲倦
我不知所措
我猜不透这灰涩的缠绵
我看不清这暗淡的一切

你不懂
你不了解
你不明白
你的忽略
你的不体贴
我倦了
累了
我的心揪缠着
无法自拔
如果止痛药有效
我想它可以舒服一些
眼泪无助地坠落
也垂落得很脆弱
我无助的任意他们直流
不想挽回
不想眷恋
因为依赖已成了习惯
习惯已取代了思念
孤寂近在眼前
无奈好凄凉，好可悲
不等了
失望,欺骗,疲惫
我想睡
到永远

下一站幸福？

自我麻醉

多希望这所有的一切竟是场噩梦

独自醒觉

仿佛一切始终如一

你还在身边

人还在

心还在

一切都在



过客下了站

转过身回过头

车行已远去

我再也回不去

憧憬依旧再

回忆还在

余温还在

但是怎么也追逐不来



我没有一厢情愿

你也没有

我们的爱情没有背叛

没有仇恨

没有抱怨

没有不满

相爱的两个人

为何要遭受如此不公的判决？

我不甘心

心揪扎无法释怀

我们没有错

错就错在

我搭错了车

下错了站

在错的时刻

遇见对的你

但是一切从一开始就错了

我盲目的直行

我硬着头皮走去

途中一幕幕竟是精彩的电影

我感受到我毕生难忘的快乐

幸福， 不言而喻



我的时间还没到

我不想那么快就上车

启程到原先注定的下一站

我想留恋

流连在人海茫茫的车站

随手放逐手中的车票

就算永远也回不去

下一趟旅程我错过了

我停留在属于我的终点





放手谈何容易

我不甘就这么放弃我手中的爱情

心冷了

我弃权了

这趟不属于我的远行

是时候回家了

依依不舍， 我眷恋

瓦解了我身心疲惫

我心也倦了

放逐我自己

连同手心紧握着的这班车票

我想去旅行

到世界各地遗留脚印踪迹

厌倦了不分明的爱情

我咬紧牙关

沉默似痛恨

心死了

我欲哭无泪

守候已久的爱情

不公平的决定

我恨透了

谁走之后却把灯忘了关........?

最近，分手期......

身边的朋友一个个都恢复单身。

恰似巧合又那么不约而同地令人难以释怀。

分手，哪个真的不伤心？

心累了，倦了，还要承受离别后的伤痛。

感情没有真心付出哪来真心甜蜜？

恢复自由身，脸上扬起嘴角笑，

可是笑容却笑得好落寞，隐约藏着一股悲伤。

不难过是假的

逞强不是因为不勇敢而是不想堕落。

虽然有点别扭但是这么做起码第一步走的是对的。

回首过去，就是那背后背负的道道伤痕

让你更明白真正的爱情，看清爱情的底细。

曾经是如此令人羡慕地完美，

曾经是那么不言而喻地幸福，

曾经也是那么无比地快乐。

“可惜不是你，陪我到最后......。”

“我只能陪你到这，加油，你会找到更好的......。”

心酸，爱情休止得凄美。

如果彼此真心紧握的爱情，为什么会如此脆弱而想要放弃？

竟是如此甜蜜，为什么？

惋惜，但我不明白这牵强的道理。

朋友说爱情是互相容忍，

可我不赞同，爱情应该是互相体谅。

一味的容忍，心中夹着一丝不公平。

体谅是互相了解而得来的宽恕。

他的自私，他的不成熟，他没资格去爱。

男生往往抽离的逍遥自在

留下不知觉的她仍然痛苦的祈求一丝关怀。

她错了吗？这世界竟是一切不公平。

往往无辜的人背负着最大的伤悲。

是因为还有知觉，还有人性，还有一大堆摸不着头脑的真理。

欣赏她们虽然痛苦不堪，

仍然乐观正视爱情的勇气。

我惭愧，悔过当初。

♥~~~这个城市太多的虚伪，爱情就像迷幻灯一样；

谁走之后却把灯忘了关，让梦做得太凄凉~~~♥

遇见他，是我今生最大的福气。

这段得来不易的感情，我誓死都不会忘记。

他的出现仿佛是那么的自然，不知不觉的就在你身边,

给你无止境的关怀安慰。

“人一生中最遥远的距离，就是站在你面前，却不知道我爱你.......。”

不好意思，我的知觉来晚了，但不代表我不珍惜。

回头想想，无数个寂寞摧残的夜里，

是你陪在我身边，敞开肩膀，仍我无尽的泪水无知的降滴。

心里无时无刻的警惕自己，这个难得的你，

得来不易，无论如何都不能轻易放弃。

虽然天天争吵打闹，但我们彼此明白离开对方更是痛得不是滋味。

吵闹说分手是彼此的大忌 ，要好好思考，好好下决定。

想念你已成为我的呼吸。

爱你是我遵守着的约定。

sense , sigh .

I dont know why it sticks to my mind

I dont know why I really do mind

Perhaps it was really a coincidence that

giving me a chance to encounter you in my life

Two parallel lines are not suppose to meet together

I'm not losing my faith on you but myself

I dont have the courage to endure the failure that i might be facing

I am not daring enough to persuade myself that I deserve you

I disqualified i guess

fairy tale will end oneday somehow

sinking into the depth of sorrow

yet i couldnt even help myself up

perhaps you are not mean to me

i bear it on my mind

There's no hope willing to mend any single despair

I foresighting my hand hanging up high

whilst holding a white flag swinging in the sky.

Missing YOu......

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go

Cause this pain I feel it won't go away

And today I'm officially missin~ you



I thought that from this heartache, I could escape

But I've fronted long enough to know

There ain't no way

And today I'm officially missing you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I'm officially...


Well, I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say

that I-I'm officially missin~ you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I'm officially

But I see there's something I just can't do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can't find a way to let go of you

All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah

And I-I'm officially missin~you






couldn't blame me for what i feel


you always doubt that i aint missing you


and now you're leaving me


and i guess u dont really miss me somehow


i feel like losing faith


feeling calm peace void inanity.....


a little bit of despair yet i learn to smile it away


you too stick to your buddy


and forget your baby


i was really desperate to see you last night


couldnt u just give me a single moment


to see you even a few seconds glance?


putting off the cam


and you turned away


without giving a chance to say goodbye


leaving with a 'take care'


it aint enough for me


and it seemed like a swift


just drew away without leaving any imprints


minute consolement that make me deem that you were there


how cruel it seemed to be


it was so sad


as i'm right here without you


well you still think that i can live even better with my dudes and without u


khalas , yejee nam?


ma yejee at all !


significant gloom


i dont wish to feel like this


instead i hatred this .


i aint those sweet girl obssesed with teddy bears


but i do need a warm shelter when i'm feeling insecure with no one else



* to u and only u , despite the outsiders concern *

u given me my name and they got nothin on you bebe~=p

"Beautiful girls all over the world

i could be chasing

but my time would be wasted

cuz they got nothin on u babe

nothin on u babe

they might say hi

and i might say hey

but you shouldnt worry

about what they said

cuz they got nothin on u babe

nothin on u babe......."

i was in the darkness waitng to be found

my heart was locked away and beaten to the ground

try to find my way but there was no way out

i was broken but you came along and mended me

but when you're close to me

whenever you're around

you know i'm there for you

just like you've been there for me

you take the pain away

you make it worth to live

now that my hope's restored

and i can keep the faith.....

every simple days.....study , study and merely study.
get bored of these awful daily routines........
shopping doesnt seem helpful to me now..........
every coins spend , is every penny gained. sigh sigh sigh , boring , boring , boring
i wanna head out for a ride
i wanna see the blue sea with crystal like sand beach
i wanna see the blue sky with couples clound shpaing like cotten candy
i wanna dive into the cold sea water see the wonderful creatures of sealife
i wanna grow a pair of wings flying into the broad sky
life aint seem slightly pretty at all
signifying nothing
empty heart core filled with infinite space
what am i suppose to do
what am i gonna to do
sorry dear sis i dont wish to throw u a cold water
but i really couldnt make it after few considerations
money money money is the main problem
somemore transport...time.....
i do really wanna meet u up
have some chick folk talk hehe chit-chating , gossiping , giggling
i dont know why there's nothing seems interesting to me
bloddy hell boredom is killing me !
i irritate the fella that talk sinistic nonsense rubbish to me
shout my lung out i dont wanna to listen to 'em at all
i get annoyed by the fella who with freaking bad tempered
who always throwing its tantrum without thinking twice of it
i hatred the arrogant talk and snoppish stupid egoism of the way u speak
i frustrated by the foolish flattery act that showing off nothing bravo
theres always some bright light behide every gloomy dark cloud
i cheered by her bright smile like the sunshine never end
i laughed so hard by her silly amusement that caught my heart
i'm gonna to miss her so much , everything of her there're alwys on my mind
give her all my best wishing for all the way she is headin ahead
clowny spirit that bring happiness for everyone
impressed by her kindess and mercy


theres nothing between his two ears
as he cant figure out how much he mean to her
she catch a glimpse of heaven
whenever n wherever he is there
she sinks into the depth of sorrow
whenever n wherever he is not around by her side
undescribable sadness flowing into her empty heart core
she needs a shoulder for her tears shed
she needs a warm embrace for her wounded soul
he means the world to her well he may never knew

skin-deep beauty , shallow mind.
evil jealousy shrank the every single pace of the soul.

Just Let's the bygones be bygones.......

digging in down deep to the earth core



archeologist had finally found the old trackmark


centuries passed through as time flies



estimating the worn out treasures by the current updated perception



would it be accurate and exact like what was it in the past days?


oxidation occured , iron been rusted , radiation rays released.


the value is genuienly different as what it was.....




precious ? i dont want the old thingies




they are nothing but burdens to me right now




when i was 3 i was over the moon just bcuz i got a lolipop from my mum




and now i'm 18 i rather have a Forever 21 dress that costs u an arm or a leg




things change as the time gone




nothing remain the same




stop messing up your mind




it's not worthy at all










what can i do to make you relief?




what can i do to make you feel i'm care?




what can i do to make you think i love u?




what can i do to make you get over all those shits ?




what can i do to make you keep on the faith?




what can i do to make you undestand?




what can i do to make everything be just right as much as it is?











bebe



it's not as what you thought n what you're thinking right now



some wonderful stuffs u just cant describe it by words or sayings




it's sad and so sad situation



that only u could write down all those sorrows that stinged your heart



faith on me , deem on me , trust me and believe me



look me in the eyes and listen to my heart



all the things that i have said



they werent beautiful lies that deceived the angels of the sky



i meant it all , truly from the bottom of my flesh heart



what did hapened was really out of my hand



it's fated to be and i just got carried away by the life's fooling tricks


i do really love you


you're the best thing of my life





you're the falling angel from the paradise that rescued me from the tragedy




you hold me at the very last second that i was almost to sink into the black hole




you would never understand how much u mean to me



you would never know that how much of my love to u




i have given u everything , my heart , my feature and my soul




never in my life that someone treat me so nice , wholly embraced me of all



you shouldnt lose the faith on me




you're the one who bring up all this love story on



stop doubting and stop being sarcastic



they are worthless yet not rewarding at all

why the two love birds should break?

we're mean for each other

even with a broken wing

i still can fly for you , to you , with you

even we 're miles far apart

our heart still stick together tight

even i did lost my way back home

lead me in the sky and

bring us to where we belong

<

walla habebe ,




i have no idea how this would be



i cant figure out why all this tryin to break us apart



justice is depends on how we see it the truth



nothing neither so fair nor the same in this world



we are always messing around



fooling around and kidding around



and you know i'm fierce more than so sweet as u said



and you know i'm not kinda pussy girl that as tender as kitty



and you know i'm head-strong to admit my guilty deeds




and you know i'm silly fool that being pessimistic when lightning strikes me



and you know i'm suck in expressing my real feeling and showing my true love



and you know everything about me better than anyone else



or even more than i ever know about myself



you stupid idiot jungle dork dork



slap your boobless chest and your shaking good butt



ossumbella ana bahekbak keteeeeeeeer



inta ghabi muktakhalif balashaklah



7abebe !!!!!!!!!!!!